Love Letter I (Love of War)

    Dear Vanessa,
    How do you feel right now..? you are feeling good right..? it has been eight months I haven’t heard your voice, the natural sound of my lover. I still remember the last time we met near the seashore, when you pointed the singing seagull flying above the waves. You said it was the most lovely song that you ever heard. I just smile on you and stare your black eyes.


“the seagull singing the song of their freedom, they fly everywhere they want, even if they made a fault... nothing or no one will mad on them, nothing to worried, nothing fear anymore, flying and dancing with the smooth wind.. I want you to bring a freedom one time, take me to the bliss, Frank”. Those what you said.

It seems that we have to be patient to handle it on. I’m really missing you, I need to figure your face on my stare, not only see your brightening smile on the photo in my wallet. I feel it’s like a year without rain to stay away from you my girl. My heart is so barren and harmful, it need a really hard rain from your side, I need you hear now. It just like I was punished by my own feeling.., but I believe I’ll take the glory to you..!!

Sometimes I thought that I just have to leave this duty. This barren field. The place where you can only hear the gun singing all along. It was not the freedom of mine, I thought I seems was tied in the rocky mountain and I have to take it off, fight the colonizer to get not only the freedom of mine but for you and also for all of people around this nation.

I promise you I won’t given up to get that freedom, I’ll do and take my right. Just believe me I’ll go bact and take the freedom for you, and that time I won’t make you feel lonely, won’t let anyone mock you as unmarried woman. I’ll early marry you, my lovely Vanessa. I hope you’re smiling when you read this letter..

Sincerely yours…… ”FRANK” …


By Fuad Cholidi Arifin